How's life so far?

Been a while since I write something for my dusty site, this may become a reflection for my self in future, just like journal of what’s on my mind at the moment. It’s messy, without editing process, so yeah, it is what it is, yes it’s for you myself in the future, you might feel embarrassed reading this, bear with it hahaha.

While I was in college, I realize life is not just about getting all the happy stuff — we cannot be all happy all the time. In college, I was thinking that life will be much easier after I finish my college. I mean it does get easier — no more paperwork at least hahaha. But it getting easier with another… ekhem, let’s just call it responsibility.

I have a stable job as software engineer since second semester in college, thanks to my mentor, I start earlier than my friends on same age and I feel grateful for that. As time goes by on that job, I also meet many people, I learn much things from people that their age gap is much older than me, about how’s life at their age. I got something like “future previews” of what’s coming hahaha. Thanks for that so I know earlier what should I do next but yeah, I feels a bit scared — more like another pressure is coming — sooner or later — even if I don’t want it.

In short, as we geting old, our time getting short, your goals deadline is coming and we got more responsibilities instead haha. It start from only responsible for yourself, then continue to paid the bills, the water, the electricity, the shitty tons of food your body need. Maybe you even need responsible for your parent, The fucking taxes and its corruption!!!! Then start socializing on society — since we cannot live alone, blah blah blah. I realize sooner or later we’ll get there.

It’s always funny to exchange this joke with my friends on hangout

“Om om yang bayar tagihan listrik itu adalah kita sekarang”

“Om om yang bayar kos itu adalah kita sekarang”

Lol, it’s always funny hear those lines hahhaha

The thing is you cannot just disband those things, I mean to be blunt you can just throw it away then live your life without any responsibilities, but would you do it?

I think I wouldn’t, cause that’s life isn’t it?

As we level up (I mean grow older — I’m just trying to make it sound cool using a gaming analogy), the difficulties also get harder. As we learn, we gain more experience, unlock new skill sets, and then level up again. It might not be as easy as it sounds — each level has its own challenges — but you get the point. In the end, we’ll look back and see how far we’ve come on our journey.

At least for now what I think of life. It’s worth to live in

So “How’s life so far?”

Life has been good, I’ve learned a lot of things.

Life has been suck, I still need to learn many more.

Life has been good, I got money.

Life has been suck, I need more money… fuck.

Life has been good, I met so many people.

Life has been suck, I met so many people.

Life has been good, I made my parents smile.

Life has been suck, I made my parents sad.

Life has been good, I’m happy being myself.

Life has been suck, I hate myself sometimes.

Did I regret it? Of course dumbass, no one in this world didn’t regret a single thing.

Did I feel grateful for it? Yes absolutely, I feel grateful — even for the hardships and my regret.

Looks like my 21 years old self wrote this

“The point is mau gak mau penyesalan memang harus dihadapi, karena pada akhirnya kamu yang menjalani hidupmu, kamu yang nentuin mana yang mendingan. So enjoy your life dan jangan lupa bersyukur”

Good shit 21 years old Mul hahhahaa

That’s it, Enjoy life!

Thank you!